Monday, May 16, 2011

Whatever will I write about as I am idle?

I am afraid of being idle. I get terribly bored very, very easily. This is why I hesitated before I said "no" to offers to teach in the fall. Am I crazy or am I just realistic? I have been told by numerous people, most notably my beloved sister, that I will be feeding around the clock for at least six weeks. By my calculation, that puts me at mid-August or so before the madness ends. This is exactly when the fall semester begins. This is why I declined offers to teach in the fall.

My spring schedule is already filling up- the question is really what kind of a load I can realistically handle. I would love to take on more classes and even move up in the ranks in terms of the level of classes that I teach. I'm not sure that will happen based on my tendency for exhaustion.

This is becoming a reality quickly- last night we ordered the pack n play and the stroller/carseat travel system. Next weekend we purchase our crib/changing table.

Motherhood has nearly begun. Embarking on the unknown is both tremendously daunting and excruciatingly exciting simultaneously. This is a bit like the curve, severe dip and then drop-off of your scariest roller coaster at the park. The question is- is it fun or just very frightening?

In recent years I vote more for frightening as I get severe whiplash on any roller coaster. Perhaps this is why traditionally, nature favors younger mothers. Am I too old for this?

2 comments:

  1. You will not have one single idle moment for sure. As for being frightened, initially you will be too busy with night feeds and nappy changes to have time to be worried or frightened-- any time you get you will sleep. Then, by the time things settle down and you get used to the schedule/lack thereof, you are a veteran and no longer need to be frightened.
    Being a mother gratifies your creative instinct, though cereberally speaking, you know even cats and cows become mothers, in your heart, you feel you have created this wonderful person and it is so very gratifying.

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  2. Thank you for your thoughts!

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